So...my graduation is around the corner and I admit, am quite excited actually. I have made it through with the help of my beloved parents (Sorry ma and paps for bulldozing through the traffic all the way from home to the land of Sunway), not forgetting University friends who came and left, those who have stayed (thank God for you), mentors who offered sound advices and encouragement, and last but not least, my man of wisdom...(I passed every single finance subject because of him).
Ofcourse, I had to give myself a little more credit. All the negativity and low self esteem I used to have that everyday I tell myself how useless I am, nothing more than a empty headed doll...I silenced it the best I could. Here I am, finally graduating...
I didn't know that I could come so far to land myself in a bank with a position that I never thought I could get. Now, paying expenses on my own...I can taste that pain and sweat my dad tasted for the last 30 years. And it has only been 6 months. Though, mine is a much easier load...still living with my parents and have my father waking every morning to prepare me breakfast (i didn't want him to really, but i appreciate his doing), drives me to the train station.
Don't judge yet. You don't know me and I am definitely not a helpless, dependent child. There are many other ways I contributed, such as paying my "rent" (LOLOL) to my parents every month and not get into unwanted trouble.
All in all, there is so much I gained... also so much I missed out. However, I did not quite regret my life decisions. After all, God is fair... you gain something, you lose something else. The best of both worlds is just a saying, it depends on how you perceive that whether it is truly a "gift". But I do know that, if I were given a choice between beauty and brilliance, I'd choose the latter. ALTHOUGH, beauty can also be achieved if I were a little more diligent at dressing myself a little properly.
Now I am actually a little lost, trying to find my true north. I will keep searching...
Oh btw, I bought this really EXPENSIVE fake eyelashes after asking reviews from my friends. Word of mouth is very effective indeed. *BURNED HOLE IN WALLET* ommggg, I cannot believe this eyelashes worth 5 meals... this better be a good investment. I might try it on with make up after researching for the appropriate graduation make up. Perhaps I'll blog about it D:
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| yeap, Dollywink fake eyelashes... |
Cheers,
Felicia
